This blog is dedicated to my hero Chester Bennington.

Growing up, I've been listening to the music of Linkin Park specially the Hybrid Theory, Meteora, and Minutes to Midnight album. I'm really amazed how he can really sing well while screaming the lyrics of the song. In my mind "Is his throat not hurting?" His voice is unique and the song he sings mostly are screams which is his signature voice but I don't understand why I really love listening to it. 

Living in a poor countryside of the Philippines me as a high school student barely able to buy food due to very limited finances yet I was able to play Linkin Park music videos. Outside our school we have karaoke machine you drop 5 peso coin into the coin slot, select Linkin Park music videos and voila Linkin Park music baby! Sometimes those 5 peso coin are meant to buy food but instead it ended up in the karaoke machine slot :).

I'm being nostalgic here but Linkin Park's music help me avoid some of the bad things in high school specially smoke, alcohol drinks and drugs. It even motivates me to do some work and get some money to drop on those shiny coin slot for the love of Linkin Park music. I once dream of having my own band together with my Linkin Park buddies in college German and Julius. German can play Lead, Base guitar very well he is the most experience among the three of us when it come to playing music instrument because German play instrument in there Church. Julius can play guitar and me I can play basic drum. I don't know the drum notes but I can listen most of the individual drums sound and do it with my hands and feet of course only action no actual drums haha. I didn't even have a change to play an actual drum which I really really want to do for a long time even now. The saddest part we don't have a band.

Losing Chester was a devastating news to me. He wasn’t just a musician to me; he was my hero. I admired him and the rest on the Linkin Park Band.  It really saddens me because a day Chester died he was like a completely normal human being. Depression really sucks! Many people taking their own life because of depression. Yes, we all have our own struggles in life but I firmly believe that it is not a reason to commit suicide. 

Declaimer: I'm no expert in any study, subject or topics I may mention in my blog. I'm just a normal person who experience struggle in life since I was young and will continue to experience hardship in life but will keep fighting and going. My family is poor. I grow up without a mom only a father because my mother died when I was just an eight month old baby. My father has a partner that use violence to her children. I experience bullying when I was a kid because of my small frame body. I even have a Psoriasis since I was in high school that eat ups my confidence to mingle with other people. But despite all of that I still strongly believe that there is more to life than our struggles.

In this blog, I will share my thoughts on how to appreciate life no matter what we are facing. Each an every one of us has it's on demon inside us but we must always keep in mind that life has a lot to offer. I hope one day no person will take their own life because life is beautiful. Again, I will say it again I'm not an expert or anything so I hope you will nit judge me. And to my hero Chester Bennington you may rest in peace. Thank you.